Aspirations 

In second grade, a new kid named Ryan Meinert joined my class. He befriended me; I befriended him. So far all normal. I’m not sure how it started, from where the idea descended, but I began giving him a weekly handwritten newspaper: Nate’s News. 

I know I included jokes I gathered from other places. I’m confident I included some news stories; whether they were serious or not, I can’t say. Maybe I included baseball scores, football scores. Maybe I included other sections–I’m just not sure. And I only made one copy of each issue: the one I gave to him.

No copies of this august publication remain.

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Summer of ’86 was hot and dry across Minnesota. There was lots of dust, and for much of the summer, my house didn’t yet have central AC. We utilized the “fan method” of cooling: put the fan in the window at night. We also had a ceiling fan in the living room, which helped move around the hot air.

Just as with Nate’s News, I’m not sure what prompted this, but I drew a one-panel comic strip. In it, a somewhat human-looking individual is sitting in a chair, the ceiling fan spinning overhead. The joke is the juxtaposition of the man saying, “Boy, is it hot!” with the switch marked “Hot/Cool” set to “Hot.” An attempt ironic humor.

I rode my bike downtown to the office of the local weekly newspaper and asked to speak with the editor. For whatever reason, perhaps because my mom worked as a receptionist there, he agreed to see me. Of course nearly thirty years later I remember none of the conversation I had with the editor, but I do know that I handed him the cartoon, and a week later, I had my first official publication.

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Two years later, I was immersed in the world of reading comic strips and comic books as well as in making my own. My comic strip was Stupid Cowmix, and among my other creations was the comic book Molecule Man. I spent hours in my room first using my wooden ruler to draw panels and then filling them with text and pictures that I thought were funny, clever, and entertaining. My parents humored me.

But in that time from 6th grade through 8th grade when I was dedicated to the comic world, my drawing ability peaked, and the following year other interests grew and continued on through high school: basketball, music, role-playing games, and theater.

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And what I realize looking back is that it wasn’t so much about the drawing. It was about story. About pacing and timing. About humor. About making something of my own. Taking ideas and materials and creating something that someone else could read and connect with.

Since my mid-twenties, I’ve dedicated my life to making things: poems, stories, essays, blog posts, literary journals. I can trace a line back through those earlier experiences, realizing that they were preparing me for what I love to do.

Even now, all of my efforts begin with a blank page.

[Note: see this prior post about how I came to write poetry again.]

On an Autumn Hike

It feels good to be back writing in this space after a busy stretch. Four out of the last five weekends (including this one) I’ve been involved in a writing-related conference of some sort, but I’ve caught my breath, sitting at a downtown coffeeshop on a quiet fall morning. There’s hot coffee to my right, a pumpkin muffin to my left, and small-town blue sky over the storefronts.

I’m in Missouri attending a creative-writing pedagogy conference at the University of Central Missouri, and because the conference is smaller, I have had some down time to let my mind relax. The weather’s been gorgeous, compared to back home in Central TX. 60s, no humidity, nice breeze. Before yesterday afternoon’s sessions, I went to Knob Noster State Park and hiked for an hour on two trails. It was the right weather for my favorite wardrobe: jeans and a T-shirt.

As I walked on the trails, leaves and acorns occasionally dropped, and I enjoyed the golds, the light tans, and the occasional reds. Even though I was in woodlands, I was reminded of those wonderful Minnesota autumn days walking home from school, leaves everywhere, that beautiful span of time before the cold began its numbing descent. And I found myself thinking of Robert Frost’s poetry, the poet whose work has been close by me, dating back to high school. Images of trees, of leaves, of autumn, all in that controlled, artful metrical verse.

Lastly, here are the opening lines of Frost’s “October” along with some the photos I took:

O hushed October morning mild,
Thy leaves have ripened to the fall;
Tomorrow’s wind, if it be wild,
Should waste them all.
The crows above the forest call;
Tomorrow they may form and go.
O hushed October morning mild,
Begin the hours of this day slow.

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Summer Reading (and Writing)–Reflections

A month ago I wrote about my summer reading and writing plans, mentioning that I was working my way through the Norton Anthology of Contemporary Poetry and also aiming to revise 5 poems a week. Because the summer class I’m teaching begins next week, I thought I’d offer a recap on how my plans have fared.

Regarding the reading, I’m on page 650-something of the anthology, and I’m optimistic I’ll finish it before my fall semester begins. In my previous post, I mentioned one of my “discoveries” (amidst the other poets I was already familiar with). I would have to say that my “surprise” during June has been Sylvia Plath. I’ve taught a few of her poems before (“Daddy” and “Metaphor”), and these were in the anthology, but I encountered so many poems new to me. As I read her work, I was struck mostly by her skill with figurative language. In “Blackberrying,” she describes a flock of crows as “bits of burnt paper wheeling in a blown sky.” Upon first reading this line, I decided to memorize it, feeling compelled to do so.

Other “discoveries” have been Ted Hughes, Geoffey Hill, Wole Soyinka, Okot P’Bitek, and Amiri Baraka. The work of these poets amazed me, as well as did the more familiar work of Mark Strand, Thom Gunn, Gary Snyder, and Adrienne Rich. My list of poets to read continues to grow, which I believe is one of the main objectives of an anthology. I definitely plan to read more Plath.

Regarding my writing, I have made significant progress on my goal, having revised nearly 40 poems since mid-May. Most of the revisions are a part of my working manuscript, Your 21st-Century Prayer Life. The bulk of revisions were from first-draft to second-draft stage, and I revised a few from second-draft to third-draft stage. The next part of the project involves determining which poems stay in the manuscript and which poems don’t make the cut. The summer has also been productive on the publishing end of the manuscript. One of the poems was just published in The Cresset. Two more were just released in the July/August issue of Perspectives Journal. 

Lastly, because I’m shifting (for right now) from individual poem revisions to manuscript assembly (and re-assembly), I’m switching my writing focus to revising short stories, in preparation for teaching Creative Writing: Prose in the fall. There isn’t the hard work of starting stories from scratch, but rather the fun work of writing second drafts of 7 new short stories I wrote last fall. How many years into this writing thing and I’m finally developing a more consistent writing rhythm: poetry from January-June, fiction from July-December.